If you could only imagine my life these past couple of months, y'all. Phew!
From moving out of Mount Airy, starting a new job, little man starting a new daycare, and... not one, but two car accidents. Not to mention, Kylin ended up not liking his new daycare, but that's a story for a rainy day. Trust me. We all know the phrase "When it rain, it pours" - legit summary of my life. But you know what, I've tried to really stay positive through it all. Trust me, it's not been easy, but I know that I'm only in control of certain things. Things outside of my control I cannot change or fix, so I just need to focus on my actions and how I handle situations. This mindset hasn't been an easy one to get to, but it's made me look at situations in a completely different aspect than I ever would've thought of.
I had everything set up, ready to go. From the move, to ky's start date at new daycare, to when my new job was going to start. I had it all perfectly planned out. Things were going awesome, my depression was easing up tremendously, loving my new job, Ky loving his new daycare. Then bam, a car accident happens while on the job. We were rear-ended, and I thank the jeep we were in for saving us, honestly, from any crazy damage or injuries. The spare tire on the back is what protected us. I ended up in the ER that night from some back and neck pain, leaving me out of work for a few days. That was finally starting to heal and things were getting back on track.
Kylin hated his daycare, so we left. That's the very short version of that story. Here I am, out of childcare, freaking out. But you know what, we make it work. We do what we have to do right now until the time is right for another daycare to open up a spot. In the meantime, I'm loving spending the extra time with little man. It's helped me not fall back down so deep into a depressive state again, just to be honest. My munchkin is my why. He keeps me going.
On my way home from work at the beginning of May, I was rear-ended while at a complete stop in my own vehicle. A car hit them going pretty fast, causing a double impact on my car. I was removed from my car and sent to the hospital for further testing. I was sent home in a lovely new necklace for the week. I told my boss I was going to bedazzle it for work. I'm healing, slowly, but surely. Currently in the process of physical therapy and just trying to get back to the old me.
It's been tough, all around. I've had my moments where I've just shut my door and shed tears. I can't even deny that. But I do know that eventually, I'm going to get through it. It's going to be okay. Things are going to get better and can only get better from here. It's not been easy, but all of this has made me realize a lot about my life. It's made me re-think what I want to do with my life, because it is short and it doesn't stop for anyone.
What I'm trying to say is, life is tough. It is. BUT life is also what you make of it. For me, I could drown in my pity for everything that's happened, playing the victim, and take the easy way out. But I refuse. No one is going to help you until you help yourself. I know that sitting on my behind whining over whats happened isn't going to help anything. In fact, it's only going to make matters worse. Having those negative thoughts and not taking action, you're not allowing good things to enter into your life. You're blocking your own blessings. You are in control of your life, in every way. Make the most of it while you're here.
And… that when you’re going in the right direction in your life, there’s going to be roadblocks. Obstacles are going to appear that you wouldn’t even imagine, but it’s only a test. It’s a test to see how strong your faith is. Can these obstacles get you down or are you going to knock them down and keep pushing?
Until next time,